Seize the day

How many friends do I have? How many of them still keep in touch with me? How many of them always in my heart and mind? Not too many, I guess. I didn’t plan it that but I won’t claim that I have many friends in this world. Girls to boys ratio?  Approximately 4 to 1; I got along well with girls (I don’t have too much complaints) as well as with ‘some’ boys.  

I never thought about gay guys. Shamelessly, I once wished that this will make things less complicated. Ika said that gay guys are girls' best friends in the world. I still wanna believe that best friend's things are free from gender issue. It's supposed to be, at least.

I miss them all now. I miss ones who live and who’s waiting for me up there. I think I grew up with them and to some extent, they gave me more influence than I thought before. They are my role models of dos and don’ts. I love them. I just pray that they’re safe somewhere, happy, and as kind-hearted as I can remember.