Seize the day

This week was a long one. Not to mention what happened to my team mates in Accounting, Finance, and Econ class. I was just lucky to miss the interviews and job-searching crowds. I was staying at the school last Tuesday-Wednesday until 2 am to finish our Target case. It was not too hard but I think I made mistake by building our own model rather than follow what's available. I thought it would be easy to develop the model ourselves. It was, until we got to the hardest part : balancing and valuation models. Hours and hours were wasted on those. Steve was awesome and sharp; he helped me a lot. Sometimes, I wonder if I didn't loosen myself in the last 5 years, wouldn't I ever get close to what he accomplished? At least I admire his spirit to learn and be persistent as well as detail & perfect in every step. I missed that kind of person inside me. I was like him a bit quite a while ago. I just lost her due to easy compromized life. I don't know if I still able to regain it. Let's just see.

The exams in general were fair. Not that I could knock them all. If you consider that 70%-75% score (except for F520) is good enough, then I'm probably off the hook. You see..., I just put myself in an easy situation with such low standard and expectation... I might not too concern about the grades in the paper. What I care so much is that will I be able to internalize and grow the knowledge (if you say so) for the future usage. People might say that I'm not that fun with this program but again..... the sunk cost keep haunting me. I wouldn't be here if it's for nothing.

Well, congratulate me for passing this 7-weeks alive. Still have another week of work, though: merger & acquisition case.

I've tried. And I did, most of the times. However, the heartbreaks sometimes just happen. I've probably passed the stage of questioning the whats, whens, and whys. I can not wasting my time while abandoning my responsibility to my family. I just happen to not knowing how else I should manage things. If all the processes should end up with clear and firm results then I failed right away. Was that because I wasn't effective, or had not tried hard enough, or merely because it is already my limit  (then I can't expect more of myself)?

I am not saying that I think it's all craps. And I wanna believe it everytime I say that it'll all be paid. And I still wanna believe that this is just a moment when I can learn more about myself. 

They’ll be all done in 7 weeks. As patented in my character to always weight the good and down sides, 7 weeks is maybe the best. Before 7 weeks, I'll get too overwhelmed. After 7 weeks, I'll get bored. In 7 weeks, I'll be perfectly ready to ..... say goodbye.

I couldn't believe that the case competition is finally over. I knew that I didn't make a perfect job there; I am very sorry for my team that I probably have blown up the team performance. I just couldn't open my mouth during the practise session and suddenly gave up the role. It was the worst time in my life when I couldn't do something important for something's bigger than my own interest.

Maybe I took it too seriously, as always. It is obvious. A lot of things in me need improvement and change. I don't wanna be perfect; I just wanna be better each day (which was not what happened these days). I enjoyed being here but at the same time I felt that I missed so many other things. I don't know how to make it even at the end. I miss Miss K very much; too much that I couldn't even think about it anymore.

Two Ks in my life now: Kaylia and Kelley. I wanted them in my life before I finally live with them. I am gonna see how they can perfectly match to each other next semester.

When you have limited life outside your MBA, then you'll probably start to love your cohort more. I love my RED. I love the spirit, intellectuality, courage, and warmness of wonderful people I am with.

I knew I made the right decision to sign in this. The classes are fun (I know it’s only the warming up sessions). The Finance class was led by Prof. Smart from Texas. He explained Time Value of Money principles that now control the world. We calculated the value of a Titanic victim in 1912 in present value. I wasn’t the only person in class who amazed by the fact that the purchase of Manhattan Island in 1626 of $24 is now viewed as a great robbery (as it’s worth $284 billion today). I swear that I HAVE to read the materials before his class for the whole semester if I want to survive there.

The same case happens also in Accounting class of Prof. Pratt. He IS the Coach. I am grateful that the first session covered things I learned this summer (I didn’t wanna be left too far behind). Everybody speaks in his class. He points out, yells, asks, answers, summarizes, and explains pretty fast and clear. There’s no other way to enjoy his class than being well prepared. The Excel 2007 class is the most enjoyable. Not that I am expert in this area but the atmosphere is less nail-biting. Prof. Albright explains things in detail and Sarah helps us a lot.

Excel 2007 is powerful; there’s no doubt. I will post the tutorial file as the attachment for you to get experience with it. I met some of my classmates: Katie, Kisha, Karen, Beverly, Anthony, Shib, Deepesh, Swetha, Donna, etc. Many of us take the same bus early in the morning. The C Route passes College Mall at 7.14 a.m. and the next is 40 minutes later. Be there or be late, that’s the rule.  

I will be in Cohort Red, Team 1 with Jason, Jami, Balanji, and Bill. I haven’t met any of them yet. I just emailed them, hoping that sometime before the Core we can meet and talk a bit. Ika will go with her Green Cohort with Swetha and Beverly. We're in morning classes, though.

Hip, hip, hooray! Another Kelley girl in my class. Ika, my smart bright clever test-maniac lovely-mother friend, finally made it. We're going to Bloomington, wow !! I can't believe it. Life there will be better with her around. CONGRATULATION again, sis!

Many other good news are coming up, I am convinced. Guys, you are amazing! Such hard work will be worth paid. Just pray, wait, and see.